Meaningless Poem

to bite a frog softly
to burn the slag from her eyes.
to surprise a tough dog could
cause a bruise at the throat

to curve the cloud or the mud
should say nothing. the hot blue
moon is to swing rocks.
the unimportant red leather

to kiss the sharp cool moon
with blue hot belief. to cut the
blue eyed dog. to say the red
leather is hot. it's ruined.

English 1102

English 1102 is a very interesting class. Started off with a research paper and, of course, I can’t write worth a flip. It was kind of interesting though. I passed it thank god. And trying to write for the last couple of essays and I just can’t get the grasp of it. We read a lot of short stories which were very interesting. I really like “Why I Live at the P.O.” because it was very humorous. Eudora Welty does have a sense of humor when she writes a lot of her short stories. I want to find more of her work. We worked on some plays, like “Fences” and “Death of a Salesman”. Those were extremely good plays. I watched “Death of a Salesman” in class but we didn’t finish it. I found it and watched the rest of it. It was fantastic. Once we started working on poetry, I was interested because I love poetry. I try to write poems myself. I have written a few that I don’t really want to share because I was in a bad place for about two years and they are very brutally detailed.

I’m really not into group work because I don’t talk in class. I try to listen more than anything because I lose concentration very easily. I have always liked working on stuff independently. But I suffered through it because it was part of the class. I like the way Mrs. Lindberg teaches the class. She reminds me of my mom because of her sense of humor and her style. I had her for English 1101 and this class. It is really a great class.

My Love Poem!!

I thought I was in love before.

I thought they loved me.

Before I met you, I thought I knew what love was.

I met you and you changed my life

I now know what love means and how love is meant to be.

I love you with all my heart and I thought I could never say that again

You are my life now and you will always be my baby

Hypocrisy

I was thinking about how I would write about this. I’ve several incidents dealing with hypocrisy. Most of them have been because of precious boyfriends.  The worst incident was when I had moved in with my ex about 3 years ago. He promised all this stuff like “I’ll get a job and you won’t have to work” or “I love you so much” He ended up not working and cheating on me. Like he really loved me, yeah right!!! Then, before that, he was telling me how since he dropped out of high school that he was going to get his GED. And of course was a blow. He couldn’t sit in that class long enough without getting pissed off at someone and walking out. I couldn’t believe that I was really with that guy for about two years. I was very surprised at myself.

There was another incident also. This had to deal with my other ex that I was with for a year and a half. He told me he also didn’t want me to work so he would get a job and we would get a place to rent somewhere. He couldn’t even hold down a job and he didn’t have his high school diploma either. That was keeping him from moving up in any job he had. The whole time we were dating he would tell me he loved me yet I just recently found out how he actually was talking to his ex-girlfriends in the process, tell them he still loved them and that he was will to hide anything and everything from me. I found someone now who treats me better. He is a real gentleman. I have yet to be proved and any more hypocrisy with him. He is good to his word and never lies to me.

I’m not holding my breath on it again though.

March 19th, 2012

Last semester I wasn’t not as stressed about school as I am this semester. I am only taking 2 classes which don’t make sense. I really feel that I need something to make me concentrate. I wish there was something I could do. I have a dr. appointment next week and I’m going to talk to them about my flying off the deep end about school and no being able to concentrate. I hope they can give me something. I’m out of my anti-depressant and my migraine medication. I also have to tell them about that because if I don’t I do believe I will go crazy.

I was in a very stressful relationship last semester; he didn’t want me to go to school. No one is going to get in the way of me and my dream. I love computers and Computer Science in my major. My parents told me to do what I needed to do to make my life easier. I loved him because he was kind of sweet but he got to the point where he was talking to me in a way that wasn’t acceptable to me. It was unacceptable to a lot of people and when they said something to me I went off on them because I didn’t want it to be real. This has happened before in previous relationships. I finally got the point and told him about it. He thought I was crazy and I was done at that point.

I have a new boyfriend now and he is fantastic. He’s going to be a cop. At least he is going to school and he actually has his GED. My ex didn’t have his high school diploma or GED! So, therefore I knew I wasn’t going to stay with him.

Troy Maxson Racist?

The question, Is Troy Maxson racist?
I don't think he is racist. He is just trying to fight for what he wants. He wants more than what the white men give him. But on the other hand, he was upset about the baseball thing because he thinks because he's black, they kicked him off. Specifically, he got kicked off because he was getting older and they didn't allow him into the major leagues.
When he was fighting for the right to drive the garabage truck, it did seem he was being a little racist because he was mad at them for not letting the black employees drive. He has that mentality about himself, if someone didn't really know him then yea they would probably think he was racist.

Salesman

A sale is the act of selling a product or service in return for money or other compensation. It is an act of completion of a commercial activity.

The seller or salesperson – the provider of the goods or services – completes a sale in response to an acquisition or to an appropriation or to a request. There follows the passing of title (property or ownership) in the item, and the application and due settlement of a price, the obligation for which arises due to the seller's requirement to pass ownership. Ideally, a seller agrees upon a price at which he willingly parts with ownership of or any claim upon the item. The purchaser, though a party to the sale does not execute the sale, only the seller does that. To be precise the sale completes prior to the payment and gives rise to the obligation of payment. If the seller completes the first two above stages (consent and passing ownership) of the sale prior to settlement of the price, the sale remains valid and gives rise to an obligation to pay.

Willy is a salesman, but as Charley tells him, what he doesn’t seem to understand is that “the only thing you got in this world is what you can sell” (1256).

 What do you think Charley means by that? I believe Charley means that what Willy sells is the only way he can make a dollar. He can’t support his family unless he sells what he owns.

 How does it reflect the America of the late 1940’s? Being a salesman in the 1940’s was how people made their money. It is quite different now.

How does it reflect the America of 2012? Now, there are several different ways to being a salesman. We don’t see many traveling salesmen’s like we did back then. Now they usually just work for a company that stays in one place.

Casting

I have read some of the other posts and it got me thinking. I sort of feel like this has some comedy in it but on the other hand it is kind of dramatic.

As the roll played for Willy Loman, I believe it should be Dustin Hoffman. He played in many rolls in comedy but not many dramatic films. I would just love to see what he had.

Not sure which one for which roll but I believe Leonardo DiCaprio and Adam Sandler for Happy and Biff. I have seen Leonardo in many dramatic rolls but not Adam. I just wonder if he has it in him.

I believe Meryl Streep should play as Linda Loman. She's had many dramatic rolls in her time and she is one of my favorites.

The American Dream

The American Dream is a national ethos of the United States in which freedom includes the opportunity for prosperity and success. In the definition of the American Dream by James Truslow Adams in 1931, "life should be better and richer and fuller for everyone, with opportunity for each according to ability or achievement" regardless of social class or circumstances of birth. The idea of the American Dream is rooted in the United States Declaration of Independence which proclaims that "all men are created equal" and that they are "endowed by their Creator with certain inalienable Rights" including "Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness."

I believe the American Dream is whatever you want it to be. I don’t believe there is a set definition of it because everyone sees it differently. How can we live up to something someone else has already lived? But like Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. said “I have a dream…”, everyone has a dream to live up to. My dream is to get a degree in Computer Science; I have wanted to do something with computers since I got my first computer. Not everyone have the same dream as others. Whatever the American dream means to a particular individual, that definition has its roots deep within these two ingredients. Therefore, equality and financial stability are bounded within the true definition that leads to all derivations of the American dream.

The First Thanksgiving With My Future Husband

Well last November was the first Thanksgiving with my future husband Tony. I say future husband because I have a promise ring but not an engagement ring. I love Thanksgiving. During this season, my family and I go to my grandparents’ house. They only live about 10 minutes from my house. But that year I had to go to two different places. I was extremely nervous. I had already been around his parents but not around all his family. I was scared they wouldn’t like me. Once that day came, I knew they didn’t like me because they acted very strange. Tony’s dad deep fried a turkey, which was something I had never had before. It was so delicious thought. We had turkey, dressing, giblet gravy, green beans, rolls, cranberry sauce, and dessert. The dessert consisted of homemade banana pudding, homemade red velvet cake and fruit salad. It’s pretty much the average Thanksgiving dinner except the deep fried turkey. That was kind of strange but it was good. We stayed there half a day. After that was done, I told Tony I didn’t like that the other part of his family didn’t talk to me and acted like that they didn’t like me. He said I had nothing to worry about because they always acted like that and the fact that I had nothing again anyone else. All I could do is pretend to like them. Now we were on our way to my grandparents’ house. That year, my aunt and uncle and cousins came up but this past year they didn’t. When we got there, the food wasn’t done yet. I had my computer so Tony and I got on my computer to wait on the food to get done. My sister and her husband had gotten there just after we did. About an hour had past and they food was finally done. We ate the same thing that Tony and I had eaten at his house. But I was okay with that, it’s Thanksgiving. It was the best Thanksgiving I had in a long time. And I hope that the nest years are just as great as this one. 

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